Astrid's demeanor sharpens.
Ulfarr is not sure how to read it. It's not exactly angry. It's perhaps...
Un unsettling suspicion descends on Ulfarr that Astrid is looking on him as if he is a child, as if he is the same man from so many years ago, whereas Astrid deems that she has grown, aged, matured, gathered wisdom well beyond her years and therefore far wiser than Ulfarr.
If Ulfarr wishes to speak to this thought, Astrid gives him no opportunity, her own voice filling the ensuing caesura.
A spear? Do you wish for a magic spear between us and our attackers on that day, Ulfarr? I'm afraid you may be missing the meaning of this tale. Hrist was not powerful because of her spear. Nay, Hrist's spear was Hrist's own might. No man could have her unless she willed it, and her spear was the proof of it.
Perhaps Astrid perceives a change in Ulfarr's own reflection, for she adds, as if for the benefit of Ulfarr's heart.
Listen, old friend. Yes, I consider you a friend still. I do not hold you blameable for anything that went on that day so many years ago. You couldn't have prevented it, a spear couldn't have prevented it--only I could have prevented it, and I could not at that time because I did not yet know the perils of the world, and I was not yet prepared. That's what I learned that day, Ulfarr, that I could rely on no man but myself. And surety in my reliance requires discipline, courage, adherence to an ideal.
The sun, now near fully risen above the glade, shines directly on Astrid's face, causing it to shine like a shield in battle as she looks out over Olaf's daughters.
Does my spear now stand between those fair children and the peril of the forest around us? I think not. I will do my part, because that is my ideal: to mitigate the strength of the terrible against those who lack their own. But I know if it's not the forest, if it's not evil men, then it will be something else. Disease, old age, an accident, a bad birth. We all are only accountable for ourselves, and those fair children will learn it soon enough.
She shakes her head, as if her own rising and vehement speech has shaken her out of trance.
Forgive me my speech, Ulfarr. Do you wish me to continue? I have become mazed in my mind. Do you want to know how it settled, this matter between your father, our jarl, and the spear-maiden Hrist?