Chapter 1: Awakening

Trust me, I get it. Running a game is a big commitment, far moreso than just playing. And real life is far more important than a game. I've been tired for probably 15 years, and not a tired that a few more hours of sleep will fix, so... I sympathize. I really do.

This is true
This is also true, especially where your health is concerned.

I've recently hit a wall myself where I've had to drop almost all my pbp games. There's no shame in making this a low priority.

that's basically what happening until i can get myself out of this slump im in. i have ideas and i would be angry at myself for not letting them be realized but rn im just tired af and having difficulty with getting out of bed

Sounds like depression. Have you spoken to anyone about it?

i've spoken to my partner about it, not really much i can do about it really just having to ride the storm out and see if things get better

I'm no therapist (and I don't know if your partner is) but some things that have helped my friends are journaling, exercise, volunteering, and just making sure they spend some time in nature. Pretty standard stuff, but often recommended because they do work for some people.