Apr 27, 2019 5:29 am
I like thinking in the shower. Not sure why, but I find the running water relaxing. I mean, I know why hot water is relaxing, I just think better in the isolation I think. I live alone, but in here the whole world fades and I feel like I can put the pieces of my life in at least a semblance of order.
So "They" did something to me. I'm not what I was, but I am me. I don't understand it, but i'm not alone. Whatever changes have been made, I can deal with them. There was a whole bar of people like me that I can go to. I have someone I can call. If I believe I can trust them all that is. I mean...that one lady had no legs. She had a snake body for legs, like a f***ing Medusa or something.
And there's something called a "soulless" out there. Whatever that means, it can't be good. I just need to learn more. I guess, getting out there and seeing what I can see is all there is for it. I should get Caitlin to her car now. Could it all have been a crazy dream? Feels more real than real right now. I'll just have to keep playing it by ear.
Getting out of the shower I wrap a towel around myself and check on Caitlin. She's sleeping still, sprawled out and taking the whole bed. Sitting beside her I hesitate. I don't want to wake her. I can't talk to her about this yet...not sure if I ever will be. I touch her shoulder and shake her gently. "Hey babe, time to wake up. We're burning daylight here."
So "They" did something to me. I'm not what I was, but I am me. I don't understand it, but i'm not alone. Whatever changes have been made, I can deal with them. There was a whole bar of people like me that I can go to. I have someone I can call. If I believe I can trust them all that is. I mean...that one lady had no legs. She had a snake body for legs, like a f***ing Medusa or something.
And there's something called a "soulless" out there. Whatever that means, it can't be good. I just need to learn more. I guess, getting out there and seeing what I can see is all there is for it. I should get Caitlin to her car now. Could it all have been a crazy dream? Feels more real than real right now. I'll just have to keep playing it by ear.
Getting out of the shower I wrap a towel around myself and check on Caitlin. She's sleeping still, sprawled out and taking the whole bed. Sitting beside her I hesitate. I don't want to wake her. I can't talk to her about this yet...not sure if I ever will be. I touch her shoulder and shake her gently. "Hey babe, time to wake up. We're burning daylight here."