"Hey sister-girl. Feeling a little better?"
1. Cloakwood
"Hey sister-girl. Feeling a little better?"
Ida helps those who are struggling and weak fashioning walking sticks and supporting those who cannot walk any further. She provides water and food to help moral up as the forest looms menacingly
From my bag I pull out a small wooden horse that I have been working on.
With a slight flourish, I summon Tulco and give a small display of my horsemanship. Somehow coming off as expert but not showing off more than I have to.
She opens her mouth to say more but shuts it and exhales. Parts of her mind kept drifting back to the comforting numbness of the Shadowfell and the lethargic daze she was in during her conversation with Viconia. She broke out of it, but...there was something strangely appealing about it. She didn't want to worry Aiwë more than she already was, however.
"Thanks for watching out for me. And never giving up on me," she says instead, giving a genuine smile. She glances over to Aiwë. "How are you doing? You've seemed a little more...terse lately. Not that there's anything wrong with being terse or tense or anything...! Just, um...You know. You're so strong in every way. I just hope you're not hurting yourself by trying to carry your own pack and everyone else's."
"It's... been a hard set of tendays."
Stella starts at the drum beat and winces as Aiwë grabs her hand tightly. She lowers her voice to almost a whisper and cranes her head to look at Aiwë. "Isn't he, like, twice your age? I mean, Arannis was like, ten times Saki's age when they got married...but I feel like it's a bit different for elves..."
She shakes her head and places her other hand on Aiwë's and meets her eyes. "He's gone through a lot the last couple of tendays as well. Many intense emotions. That can heighten feelings of connection. I've...had a bit of that too..." she says nodding her head to the side and smile sheepishly. "He's found hope in you. And you are pretty amazing." She raises her eyebrows to emphasis "are". She shakes her head again. "So it makes sense. But Snapple Gobs...that does sound...uncomfortable...what did he say? And what you do?"
"I told him he was confused, that I wasn't what he wanted. He said I make him 'want to be more.'" Her laugh is frenzied. "Of course of I do! I make everyone want to be more! It's my whole job!"
She drops her voice low and gesticulates sharply in front of her. "I bang my drum in battle, encouraging everyone to be strong and brave. I soothe them at night so that they can sleep and wake up better. I tell stories to inspire and give uplifting examples. I persuade captives to give up their old ways and proclaim judgement when they will not." Aiwë swipes her hand like a falling axe. She swallows hard.
"I keep myself in control as best I can, so my example is not contradictory. So I don't besmirch our family, and what they've worked so hard for. So that I don't burden those I am working to uplift." Her hands fall loose finally, no rhythm or movement left.
"I'm glad I gave him hope. It's what I wanted. It's what Im supposed to do. But I'm not the path to it. Not a prize at the end of it. Still... if he only saw the story I told, and not me... then that's not his fault. I did my job. A bard shouldn't be more prominent than her tale. I'm invisible by design."
Stella faces forward and falls silent. She draws her lips to a line, surprised at Aiwë's tirade.
Stella remembers how harshly Aiwë backlashed when Stella and Calliope and suggested they lay low and Aiwë avoid performing. Stella hadn't been sure what she wanted to be. Meanwhile Aiwë knew exactly what she wanted to be...and couldn't afford herself to be anything less.
But...if Aiwë got what she wanted in giving him hope, and she managed to speak her mind...why was she so upset?
She pauses for a moment. "...May I ask what you have been 'hiding'? What you want to let people see, but can't?"
"But mostly... Every time I close my eyes I see Keggruk's face over my shoulder, dead and lolling with Gruumsh's Mark. Who next? What if I can't carry them to safety next time?"
She thinks over what she heard about Rieltar and Koveras.
Was Rieltar...trying to make it seem like Gruumsh hadn't been defeated by the Avatars of the Triad? That orc-kind hadn't actually been freed from his influence? Publicly display a half-orc being embraced into society. Lure in the man who wrote the book on the Cagebreakers. Drive him out into the woods with an assassin after his almost-daughter. Mark him. Call the book a bunch of lies whether he stays dead or not. Send assassins after the young adults to stop them from more meddling. What would be next? Stage or stoke orc aggression, sow fear, and rally people against them? They could spin Koveras' betrayal to that end too...and...What about the orcs back home? Would the mark sow doubt in the orc-blooded there?
If...enough people believed in a god, did that bring them back to power? Were there any connections between Bhaal and Gruumsh?
Stella reels slightly, blinking several times from all the jumps in logic her mind. She was probably just ice fishing for connections that weren't there...but some of those things could be possible. Either way, she was starting to regret how she purposely avoided religious studies growing up.
Aiwë sees this, that something she said has gotten Stella thinking deeply. The white-haired girl shakes her head as if to clear it, however. Aiwë needed someone to listen, not spout theories right now.
"That's...that's horrible." she says finally. "I'm so sorry. How do you even sleep?"
"Ada showed me how he trances. It doesn't work the same way for me, obviously, but it puts me to sleep when I'm anxious. Nightmares end when the morning comes." She shrugs. "Mostly." Aiwë sighs and rights herself.
"Thanks for listening. I do feel a bit better. I do want to hear all those thoughts you've had spinning just now. Maybe this afternoon." She stretches her hands and some rhythm begins to return to them.
"I'm ready to talk about something else for a bit." She looks at Stella sideways.
"On a scale of one to ten where one is 'barely acquainted' and ten is 'the stuff of ballads,' how in love with you would you say Aldous is?"
She contorts her face in thought. But those don't describe his level of 'in love'-ness. I..." She laughs. "I'm sorry, I don't understand this scale is supposed to work."
She moans quietly then slides her hands down and off her face and whispers. "Those plans had better be after we're done trying to stop a war and have a chance to actually court..." She did not want to explain to him...and did not want Aiwë to point out how Mama and Papa met and got married in a concerningly short time also while trying to fight and stop a war.
"I think he has a bit more sense now about timing and such things, buuuut when we first met I sang him the ballads about our parents and, well..." Aiwë catches the look on Stella's face and ceases that train of thought.
"He'll probably be annoyed like I'm ratting him out or something, but I have to warn you: he's been fighting to earn my blessing to marry you and, well..." Aiwë grimaces apologetically. "Last night I gave it." She holds up her hands defensively. "I told him he didn't need it, that you could and would make your own decisions regardless of what I thought, but since I'm your only family around he was pretty determined about it." She laces her arm through Stella's.
"I thought you should know. It's not a judgement from me on whether you should or not and if so, when, or anything like that, just that I think he's a good man." She nods. "A good man."
"Well. We should probably get back to our positions and keep our eyes out for danger.," she says finally. "As for my thoughts, I have some...wild theories about the assassins. I'll tell you at lunch."