That single word of power left a hole in Aiwe's memories. As she becomes aware of it, feeling the edges of this strange hole, she comes to a gradual, simple, terrifying realization:
That's not the only hole in her memories.
And just like that, in her mind's eye, it's like the structure representing the last few months of her life is suddenly riddled with holes, some two-dozen mental itches that she can't scratch, because they don't exist.
She is missing an alarming amount of memory.