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That's happened a few times. I've unlocked it. I think someone hits the lock button on the top right. Probably me, lol

When I met her, she was gluten free to handle various physical symptoms. She had just recently started taking GABA to calm her mental fog and fear that had kept her in a 12 year relationship with a live in bf that was going no where. I was her first date and she and I realized that we didn't want to date any one else. We were perfect for each other. I made her gluten free valentine's cake and cooked for her since I knew how from my friends who had autistic kids. She was lively and intelligent and showed no signs of illness. Her mother was strange, but aren't they all. Well no, I loved Lisa's mom better than my own if that is possible.

The illness increased and her mind snapped right after Aslan was born, despite renewed efforts to purify our food for the kid's and her sake. She started consulting a Life coach who introduced her to New Age cosmology, and that rabbit trail lead to strange places and allowed her imaginary to explode. I learned a lot of tarot and Hebrew/Christian mysticism. I learned Hebrew and studied various pre-Diocine Council ideas. To me it was interesting. To her it was God talking through her. When she was doing battle with demonic forces, I finally tried to put a stop to it, and she admitted her mind was broken. But the next day she refused to get help and had patched her story and now keeps her delusions hidden from me, since she suspects me of putting her in a nut house.

We have reintroduced wheat into our diet and as long as we are careful the wheat berries we buy and grind, there seems to be no ill effects. Izzy has gone through many allergy tests to check for reactions.

I'm becoming an expert, lol.

I had not idea wheat could be tied to autism or mental issues. I can say I feel a lot better physically since I went low carb, which includes no Triskets (which I used to eat a big box a day) or bread. Of course, loosing 80lbs helped a lot, and exercising regularly helps more than anything (if i miss a few days I start to feel blah, but one walk perks me back up).

I have few regrets, but one regret is how long it took me to wake up and start studying physics again. I loved it in highschool, but circumstances and my own choices took me to the lost years of the 90's. Once I started reading, then studying, then devouring every book and lecture I could from Feynman, Suskkind, Greene, Einstien, Hawking, Witten, etc. My view on everything changed.
That's about the time I left church and my smile came back. I have no guilt, worry, or burden that all that dogma weighed my brain down with. The last 20 years have been my most productive for sure.
I do have Tourettes, as I am sure you remember my many tics. There is a lot of study that it is caused by an over production of dopamine in the brain, which is used in movement. That would explain my overwhelming 'need' to move. But it also is part of what makes chocolate and sex feel so good. So I credit that to my general good mood, my ability to quickly bounce back from depressing things, and probably my over active sex drive. The later of which, I have no guilt over since that dogma was expunged.

I am glad you are taking care of your kids. That much I do envy, having never had someone call me daddy. You are much better suited for it, and they couldn't ask for a better teacher. I LOVE that you started them reading the classics so early (I'd expect no less).

Our basis for for our diet is the book gut and psychology syndrome that makes a connection between the gut and the brain. We went through this nazi diet and came out quite different people. I never knew I could feel so healthy.

I've known my whole life eating fresh fruits and vegetables and avoiding processed and fried foods would make me healthier, but I didn't know it would make me feel so much better. It wouldn't have mattered though. Then I didn't have the discipline. Now I don't even have to have discipline, I'm actually happy eating well.

also the Western A Price Association, a wonderful group of people who use the GAP diet

Updated Character sheet. Added Notes to spells (copied from DnD Beyond), added my two 2nd level spells (I finally read Bard in the 5e Player's Handbook), and added my Abilities. By the way, Fey Ancestry I can't be put to Sleep, and have a bonus against Charm, but it didn't say what the bonus was.

awesome

Hurricane coming through tomorrow. Hopefully the power doesn't go out, but that may be a fool's hope. I can't seem to find the app for Android

I do not believe there is an app. I use the internet browser.

Kili said you gave us your stamp of approval. Such a wingman you are, though I know you were conversing for your own curiosity.

My apologies for not engaging in the forum last night. With the odd couple out, I gave my full attention to the kids and to Kili and loved my evening, even while she was talking to you at the same time, lol.

I was bored, she's the only one who responded to anything I typed. I started a dialog with Code the other day, too. I won't talk to her anymore outside of the public chat. Problem solved. Chatting with another player is not anywhere close to being as important to me as you are. I'm used to being alone. Life sucks, then I die. Maybe even from the wind blowing trees around my yard now.

Dude! It wasn't a problem for me. Life does suck, though, lol. Take the dodge action on those trees!! The oracle is talking in game. You can talk to her, too.

I typed that in the middle of a hurricane with while watching my garden being destroyed, my power out, and $200 in milk, cheese, meat and frozen vegetables that I bought Monday rot in my powerless fridge. A trained electrician and I don't have a generator.
I write this sitting in the dark. I have no romantic intentions towards the person who plays the character of Kit. I told you this. She's a ballroom dancer, I told her that is totally you and totally not me. She's into pop, rap and kpop, all of which make me want to vomit when I hear them. I'm into old rock, hard rock, Outlaw Country, football, loud guitars and super hero movies. I can't imagine her liking any of that. You're a gentleman, I don't own a tie, or know how to tie one, or care to ever learn. You're Lawful Good or at least Lawful Neutral. I'm Chaotic Neutral.
I started talking to her as part of the game and we conversed. I didn't realize you would be bothered by it. Then I saw the "Elves always go for the biggest heart in the room." Which was ironic because I believe I have the biggest heart physically and emotionally (vain of me, I know). Although the emotional one belongs hook, line and sinker to the one I love most in the world, who is currently living with another man (again), even though I get 10 to 20 texts from her a day and can't seem to ghost her or stop loving her. Welcome to my nightmare.

Was I enjoying talking with Kit? Yes. For one thing, she responded and engaged. She asked questions and answered mine and asked others, to which I answered. We conversed. I had asked if Kon, Duke, Kit and Jacob could do a side adventure together, since Tesh and Code were away. Instead I sat watching an old episode of Hill Street Blues and responding to the occasional message. I'd have been happy have been killing goblins and bantering the group. I chat with literally dozens of people online, some I've grown quite close with, only 3 know my personal info. It's easy for me to sit and be a faceless brain spewing out thoughts, or a gorgeous avatar to aid the illusion that I'm not happy with certain aspects of my RL.

Anyway, the goal of all this was for me and you to play D&D together. I got my bro in, you got your friends in. I suggested we find a format other than email, and Code found GamersPlane, and you found Kit, which changed the flow of what the game would have been otherwise. I think the comments Kon and Code made about predestined story was more in reaction to what seemed like us being taken into a story you and Kit were conducting and we were coming into it. Then it opened up and most all of us got to get involved and I've been enjoying it. I hope we continue to grow the game. But if ANY part of it is going to cause you to think of me differently, or me to think of you differently, then none of it is worth it to me.
You're the one person in the world I have felt I could tell anything to without worry of reprise or someone not understanding (which probably says a lot about my other friends, or lack thereof).
Sorry for rambling a bit, today has been a VERY SUCKY and TRYING day.

DUDE! dude! D$U^D*E

Nothing about you talking to Kili or Kit upset me. Never did. YOU ARE MY FRIEND ALWAYS.

And yes, sorry about Azul taking the story along Kit's backstory. Funny thing that. She started off as a potential villain in the story, but she couldn't do it, had too much romance and love in her heart, which I discovered very quickly. Her flaw became her strength, and all of a sudden she aligned exactly with the overarching story that I had for this campaign. It wasn't that I moved the story to Kit, she fell in line with the story that does involve love, loneliness, redemption, betrayal, reconciliation, all the really good parts of a high fantasy romantic epic. Thank goodness that you see that you are involved in the story too. Each player is part of it and controls it. The seed has always been a focus and fulcrum point in my story for each player. Thank you for expressing your desires here. I will reflect them in the story. That really is the point of the oracle and my DM style. Understand that I was doing a reflection for Kitsune as well. It is hard to reflect the character's desires unless they express them. The Goliath is determined to be the fall guy, and the Dwarf wants to do, do, do without much thinking. They are important characters, but they can't drive the story like that. I'm giving Kon a chance for devotion and loyalty. I am giving Storm a chance for salvation . What does Jacob want? You told Kit something in Elvish, but let me help, too. Tell the Oracle.

I am SOO SORRY about your darkness. I want to shine a light in there. Give you a taper of hope.

In the basin you see a jaguar knight draped over a tree bough with a tabaxi stripping its flesh. Over the tabaxi’s shoulder sneaks a green folk elf in cloak and boots In the jungle beyond. He stands and addresses the cat woman and they have a long conversation. In the end, she gives him three amulets for the price of a cheap Gemstone. As the elf handles the amulets, he pauses on the cylindrical metal ambassador’s phalactory with the access badge to the High Kings court at the Maztica Tree. He places his lips to the end of the pipe and places his fingers on the markings that are spaced like holes in a simple wooden whistle. Moving from one note to another in a c-chord. He blows in the pipe and it opens.

Since I no longer have the pass, I try different musical notes with the hollow amulet

LOL, I mentioned above I like hard rock, loud guitars and super hero movies. Then I got a message from Kit saying she likes Metallica, headbanging and asked if I like Marvel and DC movies. Maybe she runs Gamer's Plane and reads all messages?