Son of a low-income, single-parent household in the southern United States, AJ had a rough upbringing. The bullying, lack of friends, and toxic family dynamics were the norm for the first two decades of his life. The five years that followed punctuated those first two decades with... nothing. He was just a NEET that sat around, played video games, played TTRPGs with his friends, and felt sorry for himself. It was an unremarkable life, but the five years that followed the five nothing years were the exact opposite. Moved out of his parents' house, got married, and aspired to be a high school English teacher. Meeting his wife turned his whole life around. Following her example was what guided AJ to discover his love for education. It would be all the better if he could inspire the next generation to not follow his mistakes. Halfway to his Bachelor's degree, bartending on the weekends, and four years into his job as a substitute teacher, life was really starting to look up, even if spinning all of those plates was incredibly stressful.
AJ was happy, awkward, and always a massive nerd. His typical hard gaze, alternative dress sense, and love for angsty music didn't make his lighthearted personality very obvious though. Friends and his in-laws told him frequently that he was a joy to be around. A couple of friends had felt comfortable enough to even come out to him as trans, which made him very happy. When asked, AJ expressed that he would feel comfortable as a man or woman. In truth, he never felt a strong attachment to any pronoun. Masculinity and femininity both excited him. However, the world was more accepting of simple pictures. A man is a man. A woman is a woman. Why go through the effort of exploring femininity when it was easier and safer to just stay in the bubble of being what he appeared to be? His friend referred to him as "gender jello". Fluid, but too lazy to move. Just slightly wobbling.
It was the end of a long week. Friday. Close to midnight. AJ just got done closing up the bar. Two shifts. One at the high school, one at the bar. These days always had him tired and ready to get drunk when he got home. The parking lot was freezing cold from winter. Ice covered the pavement. After throwing the trash into the dumpster, he dumped himself into the car and groaned to himself. After finding a song that particularly resonated with his emo mood, he hit the road.
Just a scar
Somewhere down inside of me
Something I cannot repair
Even though it will always be
I pretend it isn't there
It was hard to see through the frosted windshield. The road was barely visible, but it was familiar. He wasn't worried. No, he was speeding. Not because he wanted to get home that badly, but because he was just enjoying driving. A part of him just wanted to drive. He didn't care about the destination. As he turned into the alley to get home, a blinding light took him elsewhere.
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